Friday, December 15, 2006

The singer (xcuse me ) in me


the first time , i ever sang

was once i was in 3rd std i think..

was made 2 giv name 4 inglish recitation..Anniemol miss(mathematix teecher of 3rd std) gave me one song...it sounded gud when she sang, makin me lern..

i presented it..nuthin noteable happnd..

then in the 4th std..

by tat time i was a renounced singer :D :D :D

in the skool level yuth festival the competition was bw the 4 houses,red,green,yellow and blue..

in 4th std,,i was in blue house..

4 the yuth festival, i was in the grup song teem..and v got 1st prize!!!!

the song was “Ambalappuzhe unnikannanoodu nee”(sung by Sreekumar and Chitra, film Advaitham)...

then in sum othr grup song also(not 4 yuth festival) i was in the teem and again won 1st prize..

this time the song was ..whu sed my memory is bad..

the song is as follows...

“sindu ganga,samathala bhuumi,

sapthavarnaa bhumiii....

hima muthachan..pottivalarthiyaa ,harithapaaavana bhummi...

karma bhummi...aaaa...aaa..aa..”

well,ther was a singer in our grup song teem,whu later used 2 earn valuable points 4 our skool in state level yuth festival etc..Simla..shes nw master in the art.

whn i enterd 5th std, my voice became manly :D :D :D

voice no more supports singing...so gav up my hope 2 give a competition 2 Yesudas :D :D :D



the obvious thing happnd...time passed by..



nw im in 12th...the prayer song in assembly is the responsblty of each class for a week.our class' turn came up..i stil cant believ i was in tat prayer song teem.it was a gud song..... "ennumennil nirayaum velichame, ente kaiyyil kudiyirikkenamee...."


durin thos days i stayd in St Thomas hostel....hostel day celebrations came ,competitions...

the singer in me woke up :D :D :D

after all im an xperienced singer rite....only in 3 competitions i participated..

of those in 2 i got 1st prize.(u r not supposd 2 4get tat i got 1st prizes in the 2 grup songs.):D :D :D

so motivating winnin percentage :D

thot of a song.....told my frnd Sudheesh. He 2ld me of gettin a song within next day..from one of our juniors whu's a gud singer …got one song..

Ramu gav me the lyrix,he gav me the cassette 2o ,his own recorded voice..

well thanx 2 Sudheesh,thanx 2 Ramu..

wnt 2 hostl.....serchd for a walkman,got it atlast..listnd 2 it..Godd.....2ooooooooo simple a song...

i tried it....wow....i gasped...

i hav a cusin,my best frnd 2,whus xcelnnt in singin...had herd of one of her songs,which came in one of the albums..related with onam...

thank God...its not tat tuf...

tried tat, practised both the songs......the 2nd one seemed easier...

well, competition.....thanx 2 audience..they allowd me finish singing..

gud bye 2 singin career....

once mor pranam 2 yesudas,2 simla,ramu ,my cousin.... guys u r great...


nw the obvious things..


nuthing special happnd till the 3rd sem...

well, these days hav startd listin 2 inglish songs... thanx 2 Hash 4 the same.

Bryan Adams and Linkin Park bein the favrts tat time..

the album Spirit by Bryan Adams has entrd intu my sprit:D :D :D

whnever i listn 2 the song and sing with Bryan Adams(note the point..)

God i cant believe..i sing 222222222 gud....

and whn i start on my own..i know... he he...miracle wont happen atleest in this case.. "here im ...this is me....."

i had lernt the lyrix listenin 2 it...


nw venue....


3rd sem classroom...

ppl around,Hash,Deeps,Hkp,Anju,Lallu,Chandu...

hw it startd , i dunno...

well sumone was singin or ,i dunt rmmbr..

Deeps askd me 2 sing...”Onnaam raagam paadi”..well Anju is ther 2 help.....startd,stoppd,again startd,stoppd.. gav up aftr singin few lines..

sumhw hash knows me and Bryan Adams singin 2gether(:d)

well, 'demand' was ther 4 me 2 sing “here im “ ..

high demand :D :D :D.....so me goin 2 giv a competition 2 Bryan Adams.(2 Yesudas i hav droppd earlier u knw rite?)

well, so Hash,Chandu,Deeps,Anju,Lallu,Hkp around... ..nun left in class...

1,23....

silence..

im waitin for the music of ‘guitar’ 2 b over...

teng teng teng tenggggggggggg

..........

eeeehueheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

teng teng teng tenggggggggggg eeeehueheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

sumone interruptd

wait....music cumin only....

ohk here gos.....

i closd my eyes...

virtual guitar again.. ON

“teng teng teng tenggggggggggg

..........

teng teng teng tenggggggggggg

eeeehueheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

teng teng teng tenggggggggggg

eeeehueheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Here I ammmm - this is meeee
There's no where else on eaaarth I'd raather beeee
Hhere I ammmmmm- it's just me aand youuu
And tonight we make our dreams comeee trueeeee

It's a newwwwwww world - it's a newwwwwww staart
It's aliivve with the beating offf yyooungggg hearts
It's a newwwwwwwww day - it's a newwwwwww plan
I've been waitinggggg 4 you
Here Iii ammmmmmmm…”

i cud hear sum of my frns tryin hard not 2 lof..still anju cudnt help it..

well,nyways i dint open my eyes until i stopd singin the first part of lines r over....

lukd at # once i opnd...:) :) frm him..

i knew, @ tat momnt... it was 'great'...

# is THE ONE(note the point) hu is usd 2 hear tat song..mite b MMPP also hav herd tat...thank God rest

havnt herd tat song b4...

so with that i decided not 2 give a competition 2 bryan adams 22222 :D :D :D....

well durin my entire life til nw, whenvr I sing, ofcors, my bachi is the one whu has 2 bear it always… shes with me at hom… “y ruin tat song?” her comnt always..

"Oru chempaneerpooviruthu..." by Unnimenon of the film Sthithi

is the only song, 2 which she has changd tat commnt 2 “kuzhappamilla”


again obvious thing hapnd. time pasd by




nw in 5th sem.... farewell party for seniors..

frns frm my class ,has plannd 2 sing an inglish song..

Fools garden, Lemon tree..

"wonder how

I wonder why

Yesterday you 2ld me 'bout the blue blue sky"....

i havnt ever sang with this much ease...had 2 trial rounds of singin with frns,

wel tats it...Vivek raja and Anp were the leed singrs..thn, Anand,Salih,Malls etc were ther..

nxt day , sang tat in the function...

it wnt just like tat..



again obvious thing..




nw our farewell party. @ hotel Merlin International..

i was ther as the anchor tryin 2 make sumone cum and sing a song..

again public demand..quite natural..:d. he wil sing a song if i sing one..

ohk no probs...here gos...

I hav my favrt song “oru chempaneer” in stor..

sung the lines whus lyrix i know..

they wantd me to sing tat full song.. :d ….

I dint want my frns to get bored furthr. Thank God, I dint know the lyrics furthr.

well, gud , sum frns told..

yeah gud..:d




again.. obvious thing...

nw joind the comp.

a new mail in outluk. well here it follows..

"Symphony

The Infor Music Club

&

Baanquet

present

Infor Idol

The Search for the Voice of the Year

Is there a singer in you waiting 2 jump on stage?

Have you been searching for that opportunity 2 showcase your singing skills?

Then your search ends here!

Symphony in association with Baanquet will host

InforIdol - an event 2 find out the voice of the year

You are invited 2 be part of this special event.

If you have the talent, we will let you unleash it!!

Hurry! Rush in your entries for the qualifiers."

i knew WELL the singer in me.....

well Ashraf has given his name for the competition.... he 's gud in singin hindi songs...high pitch is his favrt..and also he like 2 sing in his own way..no one is supposd 2 find fault with ones on creativity..


the song "Dil hoom ghoom kare" from the film Rudaali, i heard it for the first time, when Ashraf sung it. it was xcellnt whn he sang....

othr frns r not of the same opinion as me coz,they hav herd it b4..

ny ways it was tremendous..

he sings with the feeling..

u shud hear hw he sings " khalbali hai khalbali" of Rang De Basanti

specially the..

” sidhiiiiiiiii....zaban

sidhiiiiiiiiiiiii....arman

sidhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii tufan”

tat made him ,one of the stars of our tour..

so Ashraf gave the name for Infor idol...i found a great chance for him 2 be Infor idol. the day came.. v got a mail as 2 tat as a special case, on tat day also v can registr for the competition..

its at 4.30 . in the post lunch session, Ashraf told me , if i also can participate for the sake of givin him a company..

i maild the organizers..and slots for nxt day is not availbl.only on tat day itslf i can participate..noooo way....

coz i hav yet 2 decide on a song and PRACTISE....ohk so next time, i thot..

soon came a call frm the organizers,askin me 2 participate on the same day....well, if i get a song, i vl ; sumhow i told tat..

he told me tat , i need sing at 6.00 pm..nw its 2 pm.

i only know tat same old “Chempaneer pooviruthu” only...

yeah, so again “Chempaneer poov”..

nw 3 mor hours 2 go ,4 startin the competition. Ashraf is nw th responsbl person in gettin me the song's mp3...

i also know only first 4 lines of the song. :d

i serchd for anothr song,atlast found “Kaneerpoovinte” (sung by Yesudas film,Kireedam).

listnd 2 it, felt not tat tuf as ‘Chempaneerpoov.’

ohk..so startd typin the lyrix of this malayalam song in inglish. almost dun....whn Ashraf found the url of the othr song, “Oru chempaneer”..

downloded it.. startd typin the lyrics of tat too... (v got 10 minutes in the competition and can sing 2 songs..)

well the abv 2 songs i thot..finishd ritin the lyrics..listend 2 both of the songs, readin the lyrix simultaneously... well red the lyrix twice..

in bw this got a call frm Saju, sayin tat mine is nxt turn...its only 5.00 !!!. the evnt only startd at 4.30.....

copid both of these lyrix frm notepad 2 word, gave a print, tuk it and rushd 2 the A2 orchids. the venue..

Vidya,the previous participant was abt 2 finish..

few hours b4 @ noon, i was listenin 2 the mp3 of the song, she was goin 2 sing, so tat i can njoi it whn its been sung.

lukd at the printout 4 the first time....

malayalam lyrix in inglish..gud..22222222 gud...

well, announcemnt for my turn..

kool..


i wnt to the front facin the audience

i startd..

“i jst got the printout..and i know only one song..i usd 2 sing tat in all occasions..

singin tat here 2o....here gos..songs dedicated 2 mallu frns here..”

well, 1,2,3....

...

..

silence....

i was starin at the printout , decidin upon how 2 start and hw 2 scale the rest etc....

actually tat was my 'rehearsal' cum presentation...

well sure.. im gonna b the Infor idol :D :D :D

again 1,2,3 frm audience..

hw can thos ppl hear the startin instrumntal musik goin in my mind..

again silence..

here gos...

startd ...startin trubl was ther....

as if v drive a new vehicl and takin sum seconds 2 gain control ovr it,

sumhw i got control ovr it aftr a few seconds...

were the audience lofin ...i dunno...

once i startd singin was fully concentratd in tat only...:D :D :D

well, 1st song got ovr..




applause...quite natural aftr vryone’s performance..

nw nyway startd..so go with it..."nananju ini kulichittu keram"

ohk here gos 2nd song...

"kanneerpoovinte"..the startin 2 lines had 2 b sung twice , but in difrrnt tunes..

tat i knew,aftr i finished singin in the same tune?

wel, i cud hear one of the judges, goin rhythmic on the desk..

kulamaayi. i knew..

wel, whn i finishd and went bac, sumone sed, my voice is gud. [IS IT? ).

2nd song was __________..

ohki...

well its over..

2mrw also nxt slot of competitions..reslt the day aftr..

gud . great.. results...huh... i kno....

participation is important in competitions.. huh..

nxt days competition also over..


on the othr day, got the mail announcin the results..


i was surprised 2 c tat Ashraf's name is not ther..also tat of Bonny's.. Ashraf's song i cudnt hear.tat time i was busy with typin lyrix of my song..

but Bonny's i did hear...the song felt 2 hav tat feeling also....well bad luck..

i went reedin the mail..wel, wot..wats ritten ther..

"But all is not lost for those who missed out on qualification. We left one spot vacant on the finalists list. Three contestants who came close 2 making it 2 the finals in the auditions will still get a chance 2 annex the vacant spot.

And for that we would like you – the audience – 2 pick up the lucky finalist."


oh gud...so Ashraf vl b ther..

Hari sed, first vote for me frm him..i dint get him.... i havnt seen the link leedin 2 tat 3.got the link frm hari..and so it..



Godd............ me ther as one of the 3,awaitin audience judgemnt.....lol!!!


soon i got a mail , abt this...

i was not intrstd in go canvassin and pickin up votes..

but this sentence in the mail "A moment 2 prove your canvassing skills rather…! Let us watch out how things turn up".

hmm....

all 3 mallus.. Youhan,Ranjini and myslf..

votin till 3.pm nxt day..

ohki so canvassin mails.... frns helpd me out...

nxt day....nearin 3.00..

results out...

"The results are out!! And the winner is...

Ranjani Nair

Ranjani won the race by a huge margin

Her tally of 110 votes was 6 more than the combined votes fetched by the other two aspirants!!"


Godd...Youhan, i dint kno tat both of us hav vl hav this much audience support!!!!

but quite NATURAL!!!!!

anyways, Infor Idol helpd me out in discovrin the singr(d:) in me..

gonna try mor..... xplorin musik..:D :D :D After all practice makes perfect...tats the motivation.....


My 1st 3 poems (:-?)



Proem 2 3 poems


hav Anel as one of my best frns.he usd 2 giv me the poems which he rites.evn if i had sed 2 him sooo many times tat i hate poems and i dunt hav tat in me to reed and appreciate a poem(but prose i can manage 2 an xtent :d), he kept on givin me the poems which he rote...he jst wantd me 2 reed it..

i also jst wnt thru it, makein out almost nuthin, jst 4 his sake..

he usd 2 say tat poems r like programs...containin only the essence..

I was of the opinion as 2 wat the hell these poems r for , makin things complicated..

and recently was enlightened by Chandu(he was with me frm 11th,thru colj,(6 yrs)and nw workin 2gthr also.my rum mate nw.)

Mostly prose can b interpreted in limited no: of ways.and the reeder's imagination dusnt hav much effect,coz the output of the prose is alredy decided by the authr.

on the contrary, in poems, both the authr and the reeder has their role , in decidin the outcum of the work..

like, a poem ritten by an authr can b intrpretd in difrnt ways by difrnt reedrs..

and etc etc etc.. like tat gos chandu's...

well, these been sum new news 4 me.and i likd 2 giv a try in poetry..:d

conscious effort....i cud rite my 1st poem...

it was like a nursery rhyme...:d

days later, sumhw got to rite 2 mor!!!

so here i giv the trilogy(!!!!)

1.Outluk

2.Silence

3.Basik Effect

Cheers!!! to Anel and Chandu in incitin(?) the poet(:d :d :d) in me..



Outluk


monday 2 friday like a shuttle

v go 2 office 2 hom 2 office

saturday n sunday the great weekends

v eat n sleep n wash n sleep

like this gos the life so fast

so fast tat v reech friday so fast

4 weeks gon,v reech the 'end'

the end of month n v chk the balance,

lol!!!!here cums anothr month.



Silence


Gon in2 the depths of silence

Oh my soul, me these days

Indefinite I'm if hav been 2 this b4

But definite I'm,this been the first feeling

The realization,

THE REALIZATION which i used 2 appreciate a lot

Silence speaks volumes

No;tats not which drives,

Silence dusnt speak volume?

Feeling the peace of silence

The unwanted words,makin mor chaotic

Disturbing the peace

Nuthin 2 b spoken abt,but so much 2 b dun abt

Racin and strivin for the action

Peace ,encouragin the silence is wat remains,

And nw will need an effort so concious,

So concious as 2 drive myself 2 conciousness

2 deliver sum sounds which seems useless,

But in a sense useful....




The Basik Effkt



I can c the sky,and then i so the stars

3 in count,lie like tat

2 below the 1 forming the isosceles

like the mathematical 'therefore' notation

now i can c the triangle ,formed isosceles by the 3

then i so the 4 more,the 7 2gether forming a 'Y'

7 days a Y(?), a 'Y' tats been resolvd 7 weeks bac,

Kids around in tat night

with innocence all around tats so powerful

arms and legs outstretched ther i lie

feeling the pull in tat night

the innocent pull from beneath,

so powerful frm the centre,still bein apt.

and hold us in tat great journey

the journey thru the galaxies,

the basic effect due 2 which v r here..

The gravity the great.

and still v can FEEL tat?




Thursday, December 14, 2006

a dffrnt beet - not just lateral thinking but latrl thinkn




if u mak up readn ths stff 2 its end thn it servs it vry simpl purps. 2 b precis it konvys u nuthin précis , but it dus konvy u sumthn. wat it konvys the decision is up2 u. 2 try out a diffrnt root. its smthn which v always giv 2nd prfrns. v prfr the usual komfrtbl way. the dffrnt root may not always b the dffklt root provdd v trid tat. but only if u try out tat, u
kan realze it and njoy
the beauty underlying tat.

our mind follows a thot procdr in the way in which v r usd 2 thnk and thus traind 2 thnk , and v thnk (or dont think???) tat its the only way. the mor view points u ve the mor flxble is ur mind. our mind gets akstmd 2 a thot procdr jst lik the procdr in which v approch 2 solv a mathmtkl problm. not the same thot prcdr is reqrd 4 evry purpus and at tims its reqd tat v need 2 follw a thot pattrn n which our mind resists 2 thnk ; wat v lose if v dont go 4 tat. nuthin much? wat v gain if v go 4 tat dffrnt way? a lot !!!!!!! a sort of dffrnce , a sort of xcitemnt which kan at times give u lot of information frm the vry little availble data , which cud feel ncrdbl 2 othrs.

so tat dfrnt beet. BY THIS TIM U WUD VE KNOWN HOW U KUD MAK UP THINS EVN IF U DONT USE TAT MUCH VOWLS IN TXT.

now abt an ntrstn karktrstc of our mnd. beliv it or not u kan read the follwn.

---------------------The pweor of the hmuanmnid-------------------------

I cnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mind Aoccdrnig 2 a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer inwaht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are,the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? wlel os si slpeling taht ipmorantt.. (kourtsey: www)

nuthn 2 b precis frm abv. thers sumthn. now the fakt tat u r a male or female mattrs the way u think. kount the "F's" in the following text: (try only once)

FINISHED FILES ARE THE RESULT OF YEARS OF SCIENTIFIK STUDY KOMBINED WITH THE EXPERIENCE OF YEARS... (kourtsey: www)

now , male brains kant procss in the first go ,the F's in 'OF's. whil female brains kan , givin the kounts 3 and 6 rspktvly. u may test it with male n female frns of urs. its only with male n female 'brains'. ther kan b females whos got the male brain karktrstx and vice vrsa.
whethr it b a male brain or a female brain
at tims v need 2 handl komplx thngs , at times komplikatd ones. v use the terms komplx and komplikatd ntrchangbly. still it kan ve special meaning atleast 2 us. now the dffrnce bw kmplx and kompliktd. the fokz is not in the way in which diktionry dfines the 2. these 2 words kan b brot in ny field just 2 show the dffrns bw 2 katgris of tasks.

lets konsdr the rlvnce of thse 2 words in progrmmn. if u r askd 2 write a prgrm , thn a komplktd prgrm is tuf in its konstrktion. mostly its very diffklt 2 find the basik logk 2 b applied. the kod may b short wth only few lines. the vry natr of a komplx prgrm is tat its very lengthy of sum 100s or 1000s of lines. its diffklt 2 go wth its flow of kontrol. the numerus funktions, nstd ifs and klasses make it a tedious task 2 make out the original kontrl flow in between with less effort. but the underlyn fakt of a komplx prgrm is tat its logk and kod r simpl , made out frm the fundmntls. a 2nd prsn if shown the kod will feel a komplx prgrm as a kmpliktd 1. this kan b xtndd 2 any walks of life. say the dffrnce bw a komplx mathmatkl prblm and a kmplktd mthmtkl prblm.

4x findin a definition 4 the funktn shown by f(1)=1,f(2)=1,..,..,..,
f(9)=1,f(10)=2,f(11)=4,f(12)=5,f(13)=6,..,..,f(19)=12,f(20)=12,f(21)=13,,,(it ko
ntinues ) is a komplikated task;u kan fnd the genrl xprssion 4 or the genrl defntn of f(x)? ths is wat u kall a komplktd prblm now; onke if u knw tat "f(x)=the no: of digit 1's u have 2 use whn u write frm 1 to x" and now if u r askd 2 find out the nxt possble no: after 1 so that f(x)=x; the problem now is a komplex one. u now know the logk, now the only thin u need 2 get the solution is sum patienz and the konsstncy in the littl bit of hard wrk u r doin.

so tats abt kmplktd and kmplx. which do u like the more, kmplx or kmplktd? now watever it may b heres sumthng tat suits for both kinds of minds or for a kombination.u kan dkod ths?

only aftr drastik trials proceed reading. jst do it the dffrnt way and u ll get it. jst try 2 reed the dffrnt way frm the way u usd 2. hop u got it. 4 thos who stll didn’t make it ………… turn the buk upsid down and try. so tat much abt tat.

now 2 smthin which is mor ntrstin. wat informtion dus the follown data reprsnt? each item in the box gives a uniq infrmtion .

(kourtsey: www)

nuthn new kan b kreatd. vrythn is only a manifstation of tat which is alredy prsnt in ths natr in sum form or othr? watver man has kreatd it exists in sum form or anthr in this natr? 4x konsdr the kase of Bats. it kant c at nite . it flies sendin out ultrasonik waves. the waves get reflktd frm ny obstakls prsnt on their way,and the bats kan xaktly know wher its safe 2 go and where its not. our radar system is thus the xakt replika of
bat's travrsin systm. it sends out sound waves,detekts the sound tat is reflktd by a distnt obstakl,and with the tim takn btwn the trnsmission and rcption it kan mak out at wat distnce the obstakl is. v kan find out othr xmpls lik ANN(artificial neurl ntwrks) adapting the struktr of neurons of our body,the struktrs of robots adaptin frm the leg struktrs of spiders and the lik. vrythn kums frm natr. its a kmplx and kmplikatd intllgnt rekrsiv kontrl systm; wher the kontrl inturn evolvs frm its kreations, which kan tak inputs frm all forms of its kreations, both livin n non livin, n redirx rspnss 2 its kreations.

nxt tim whn u go out and c the world, luk it with a dffrnce? the realization tat it was not the world which u ve seen or which u belivd as it wud b, but its anothr world diffrnt atleast by a small faktor is quite xciting. atleest u kan mak an attmpt in tat. Try the dffrnt root!!!!!

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